Vigyan Bhairav Tantra - Meditation
IN RAIN, DURING A BLACK NIGHT, ENTER THAT BLACKNESS AS
THE FORM OF FORMS
There has been one very old esoteric school about which you may not have
heard. The school was known as the school of Essenes. Jesus was taught
in that school; he belonged to the Essenes group. That Essenes group is
the only group all over the world who thinks of God as absolute
darkness. The Koran says God is light, the Upanishads say God is light,
the Bible says God is light. The Essenes group is the only tradition in
the world which says that God is absolute blackness, absolute darkness,
just an infinite black night.
This is very beautiful; strange, but very beautiful -- and very
meaningful. You must understand the meaning, then this technique will be
very helpful, because this is the technique used by the Essenes to enter
darkness, to become one with it.
Reflect. Why has God been symbolized everywhere as light? Not because
God is light, but because man is afraid of darkness. This is human fear
-- we like light and we are afraid of darkness, so we cannot conceive
God as darkness, as blackness. This is human conception. We conceive God
as light because we are afraid of darkness.
Our gods are created out of our fear. We give them shape and form. That
shape and form is given by us -- it shows something about us, not about
our gods. They are our creations. We are afraid in darkness, so God is
light. But these techniques belong to the other school.
Essenes say that God is darkness, and there is something in it. One
thing: darkness is eternal. Light comes and goes and darkness remains.
In the morning the sun will rise and there will be light; in the evening
the sun will set and there will be darkness. For darkness nothing will
rise -- it is always there. It never rises and never sets. Light comes
and goes; darkness remains. Light always has some source; darkness is
without source. That which has some source cannot be infinite; only that
which is sourceless can be infinite and eternal. Light has a certain
disturbance; that's why you cannot sleep in light. It creates a tension.
Darkness is relaxation, total relaxation.
But why are we afraid of darkness? Because light appears to us as life
-- it is; and darkness appears to be death -- it is. Life comes through
light, and when you die it appears you have fallen into eternal
darkness. That's why we paint death as black, and black has become a
color for mourning. God is light, and death is black. But these are our
fears projected. Actually, darkness has infinity; light is limited.
Darkness seems to be the womb out of which everything arises and into
which everything falls.
Essenes took this standpoint. It is very beautiful and very helpful
also, because if you can love darkness you will become unafraid of
death. If you can enter into darkness -- and you can enter only when
there is no fear -- you will achieve total relaxation. If you can become
one with darkness, you are dissolved, it is a surrender. Now there is no
fear, because if you have become one with darkness, you have become one
with death. You cannot die now. You have become deathless. Darkness is
deathless. Light is born and dies; darkness simply is. It is deathless.
For these techniques, first you will have to remember that there should
be no fear in your mind about darkness, about blackness, otherwise how
can you do this experiment? First the fear must be dropped. So do one
thing as a preliminary step: sit in darkness, put off the lights, feel
darkness. Have a loving attitude towards it; allow the darkness to touch
you. Look at it. Open your eyes in a dark room or in a dark night; have
a communion, be together, imbibe a relationship. You will become afraid
-- then these techniques cannot be of any help, you cannot do them.
First a deep friendship with darkness is needed. Sometimes in the night
when everyone has gone to sleep, remain with the darkness. Don't do
anything, just remain with it. And just remaining with it will give you
a deep feeling towards it, because it is so relaxing. You have not known
it simply because of the fear. If you are not feeling sleepy, you will
put on the light immediately, you will start reading or doing something,
but you will not remain with the darkness. Remain with it. If you can
remain with it, you will have new openings, new contacts with it.
Man has closed himself completely against darkness. There were reasons,
historical reasons -- because the night was very dangerous, and man was
in the caves or in the jungles. In the day he was more secure: he could
see all around, and no wild animals could attack him; or, he could make
some arrangements, some defence -- at least he could escape. But in the
night everywhere was darkness and he was helpless, so he became afraid
-- and that fear has gone into the unconscious; still we are afraid.
We are not living in caves now and we are not at the mercy of wild
animals, no one is going to attack us -- but the fear is there, it has
gone deep, because for millions of years the human mind was afraid. Your
unconsciousness is not your own; it is collective, it is hereditary, it
has come down to you. The fear is there, and because of that fear you
can have no communion with darkness.
One thing more: because of this fear, man started to worship fire. When
fire was discovered, fire became a god. Not that fire is a god, but
because of the fear of darkness. In the day there was light and no fear
-- man was more protected. In the night there was darkness, so when fire
was discovered, of course, fire became a god -- the greatest. The
Parsees still go on worshipping fire. The worship of fire came into
being because of the fear of darkness. In the night the fire became the
friend, the protector, the divine security.
That fear is still there. You may not be aware of it, because no
situations are there in which you can become aware of it, but one day
put off the light in the night and sit -- and the primitive fear will
come to you. In your own house you will start feeling that some wild
animals are around. Some noise will come, and you will become afraid of
wild animals -- some danger is around. That danger is not around; that
is in your unconscious.
So first you have to overcome your unconscious fear, and then you can
enter these techniques, because these techniques are concerned with
darkness. And Shiva is giving all the techniques that are possible.
My own experience with these techniques is very beautiful. If you can do
them they are wonderful. You will enter such a deep relaxation that you
have never known. But first uncover your unconscious fears and try to
live and love darkness. It is very blissful. Once you know, and once you
are in contact with it, you are in contact with a very deep cosmic
So whenever you have the opportunity to be in the dark, and awake....
Because you can do two things: either you can put on the light or you
can go to sleep. Both are tricks to escape the darkness. If you are
asleep then you are not afraid, because you are not conscious. Or, if
you are conscious, then you will put on the light. Don't put on the
light and don't go to sleep. Remain with darkness.
Many fears will be felt. Feel them. Be aware of them. Bring them to your
conscious. They will come by themselves, and as they come, you remain
just a witness.. They will disappear, and very soon a day will come when
you can be in darkness with total surrender, with no fear. With a total
let-go you can be in darkness. Then a very beautiful phenomenon happens.
Then you can appreciate the saying of Essenes that God is darkness,
IN RAIN DURING A BLACK NIGHT,
ENTER THAT BLACKNESS AS THE FORM OF FORMS.
All forms arise out of darkness and dissolve into darkness. Worlds come,
are created out of darkness, and they fall back into darkness. Darkness
is the womb, the cosmic womb. The undisturbed, the absolute stillness is
Shiva says that it will be good to do this technique in a rainy night
when everything is black, when clouds are there and no stars can be seen
and the sky is completely dark. In a black night when there is no
moon... ENTER THAT BLACKNESS AS THE FORM OF FORMS. Be a witness to that
blackness, and then dissolve yourself into it. It is the form of all
forms. You are a form -- you can dissolve into it.
When there is light, you are defined. I can see you, the light is there.
Your body has a definition. You are defined, you have boundaries.
Boundaries exist because of the light. When the light is not there,
boundaries are dissolved. In blackness nothing is defined, everything
merges into every other thing. Forms disappear.
That may be one of the causes of our fear -- because then you are not
defined, then you don't know who you are. The face cannot be seen, the
body cannot be known. Everything merges into a formless existence. That
may be one of the causes of fear -- because you cannot feel your defined
existence. Existence becomes vague and fear enters, because you don't
know now who you are. The ego cannot exist: undefined, it is difficult
to exist as an ego. One feels afraid. One wants light to be there.
Contemplating, meditating, merging, it will be easier to merge into
darkness than to merge into light, because light gives distinctions.
Darkness takes away all distinctions. In the light you are beautiful or
ugly, rich or poor. The light gives you a personality, a distinctness --
educated, uneducated, saint or sinner. The light reveals you as a
distinct person. Darkness envelops you, accepts you -- not as a distinct
person; it simply accepts you without any definitions. You are enveloped
and you become one.
The darkness is doing it always, but because you are afraid you cannot
understand it. put aside your fear and become one.
ENTER THAT BLACKNESS AS THE FORM OF ALL FORMS.
ENTER THAT BLACKNESS... How can you enter blackness? Three things. One:
stare into blackness. Difficult. It is easy to stare at a flame, at any
source of light, because it is there as an object, pointed; you can
direct your attention to it. Darkness is not an object; it is
everywhere, it is all around. You cannot see it as an object. Stare into
the vacuum. All around it is there; you just look into it. Feel at ease
and look into it. It will start entering your eyes. And when the
darkness enters your eyes you are entering into it.
Remain with open eyes when doing this technique in the dark night. Don't
close your eyes, because with closed eyes you have a different darkness.
That is your own, mental; it is not real. If is not real. Really, it is
a negative part; it is not positive darkness. Here is light: you close
your eyes and you can have a darkness, but that darkness is simply the
negative of the light. Just as when you look at the window and then you
close your eyes you have a negative figure of the window. All our
experience is of light, so when we close our eyes we have a negative
experience of light which we call darkness. It is not real, it won't do.
Open your eyes, remain with open eyes in darkness, and you will have a
different darkness -- the positive darkness that is there. Stare into
it. Go on staring into darkness. Your tears will start, your eyes will
get sore, they will hurt. Don't get worried, just go on. And the moment
the darkness, the real darkness which is there, enters in your eyes, it
will give you a very deep soothing feeling. When real darkness enters in
you, you will be filled by it.
And this entering of darkness will empty you of all negative darkness.
This is a very deep phenomenon. The darkness that you have within in a
negative thing; it is against the light. It is not the absence of light;
it is against the light. It is not the darkness that Shiva is speaking
of as the form of all forms -- the real darkness that's there. We are so
afraid of it that we have created many sources of light just as
protection, and we live in a lighted world. Then we close our eyes and
the lighted world reflects negatively inside. We have lost contact with
the real darkness that is there -- the darkness of the Essenes, or the
darkness of Shiva. We have no contact with it. We have become so much
afraid of it that we have turned ourselves completely away. We are
standing with our backs to it.
So this will be difficult, but if you can do it, it is miraculous, it is
magical. You will have a different being altogether. When darkness
enters you, you enter into it. It is always reciprocal, mutual. You
cannot enter into any cosmic phenomenon without the cosmic phenomenon
entering in you. You cannot rape it, you cannot force any entry. If you
are available, open, vulnerable, and if you give way for any cosmic
realm to enter in you, then only will you enter into it. It is always
mutual. You cannot force; you can only allow it.
It is difficult to find real darkness in cities now; difficult in our
houses to find real darkness. With the unreal light we have made
everything unreal. Even our darkness is polluted, it is not pure. So it
is good to move to some remote place only to feel darkness. Just go to a
very remote village where there is no electricity, or move to a mountain
peak. Just be there for one week to experience pure darkness.
You will come back a different man, because in those seven days of
absolute darkness, all the fears, all the primitive fears, will come up.
You will have to face monsters, you will have to face your own
unconscious. The whole humanity will... it will be as if you are passing
through the whole passage that has passed, and deep from your
unconscious many things will arise. They will look real. You may get
afraid, scared, because they will be so real -- and they are just your
Many madmen in our mad asylums are suffering not from anything else but
just from the primitive fears inside them which have erupted. The fears
are there; the madmen are afraid, scared every moment of their lives.
And we don't yet know how to allow those primitive fears to evaporate.
If madmen can be helped to meditate on darkness, madness will disappear.
But only in Japan do they work a little towards this. With their madmen
they behave absolutely differently. If someone goes mad, psychotic or
neurotic, the Japanese method is to allow him to live in isolation for
three weeks or for six weeks, as the case may need. They just allow him
to live in isolation. No doctor, no psychoanalyst goes to him. Food is
supplied, his needs are taken care of, and he is left alone.
In the night there is no light;in darkness he is alone -- suffering of
course, passing through many phases. Every care is taken, but no
companionship is given to him. He has to face his own madness
immediately and directly. And within three to six weeks, the madness
starts disappearing. Nothing has been done really; he has simply been
left alone. This is the only measure that has been taken.
Western psychiatrists have become amazed. They can't understand really
how it can happen, because they work for years. They psychoanalyze, they
treat, they do everything, but they never leave the man alone. They
never leave him to face his inner unconscious totally on his own.
Because the more help you give, the more you make him helpless, because
the more he depends on you. And the question is of an inner encounter;
no one can help really. So those who know, they will leave you to face
You have to come to terms with your unconscious. And this meditation on
darkness will absorb all your madness completely. Try it. Even in your
home you can try it. Every night, for one hour remain with darkness.
Don't do anything, just stare into darkness. You will have a melting
feeling, and you will feel that something is entering you and you are
entering into something.
Staying, living with darkness for three months, for one hour a day, you
will lose all feeling of individuality, of separation. Then you will not
be an island; you will become the ocean. You will be one with darkness.
And darkness is so oceanic: nothing is so vast, nothing is so eternal.
And nothing is so near you, and of nothing are you so scared and afraid.
It is just by the corner, always waiting.
IN RAIN DURING A BLACK NIGHT,
ENTER THAT BLACKNESS AS THE FORM OF FORMS.
Stare so that it enters in your eyes.
Secondly: lie down and feel as if you are near your mother. The darkness
is the mother, the mother of all. Think: when there was nothing, what
was there? You cannot think of anything else than darkness. If
everything disappears, what will be there still? Darkness will be there.
Darkness is the mother, the womb, so lie down and feel that you are
lying in the womb of your mother. And it will become real, it will
become warm, and sooner or later you will start feeling that the
darkness, the womb, is enveloping you from everywhere. You are in it.
And thirdly: moving, going to work, talking, eating, doing whatsoever,
carry a patch of darkness within you. The darkness that has entered in
you, just carry it. As we were discussing about the method of carrying a
flame, carry darkness. And as I said to you that if you carry a flame
and feel you are light, your body will start radiating a certain strange
light and those who are sensitive will start feeling it, the same will
happen with darkness.
If you carry darkness within you, your whole body will become so relaxed
and calm, so cool, that it will be felt. And as when you carry light
within you some people will become attracted to you, when you carry
darkness within you some people will simply escape from you. They will
become afraid and scared. They will not be able to bear so silent a
being; it will become unbearable to them.
If you carry darkness within you, those who are afraid of darkness will
try to escape from you; they will not come near you. And everyone is
afraid of darkness. You will start feeling that friends are leaving you.
Your family will get disturbed when you enter, because you enter like a
pool of coolness, and everyone is agitated and excited. It will be
difficult for them to look into your eyes, because your eyes will become
deep like valleys, an abyss. If someone looks into your eyes he will
become dizzy, such a deep abyss will be felt there.
But you will feel many things. It will be impossible for you to get
angry. Carrying darkness within, you cannot be angry. Carrying a flame
you can be angry very easily, more easily than ever, because the flame
can excite you. Carrying a flame you will feel more sexual than ever,
because the flame will excite you, it will create passion. But carrying
darkness within you, you will feel a deep asexuality happening to you.
You will not feel sexual; you will not be able to easily get into anger.
Passion will disappear. You will not feel that you are a man or a woman.
You will feel that those words have become irrelevant, meaningless. You
Carrying darkness within for the whole day will help you very much,
because then when you contemplate and meditate on darkness in the night,
the inner darkness that you have carried the whole day will help you to
meet -- the inner will come to meet the outer.
And just be remembering that you are carrying darkness -- you are filled
with darkness, every pore of the body, every cell of the body is filled
with darkness -- you will feel so relaxed. Try it. You will feel so
relaxed. Everything in you will be slowed down. You will not be able to
run, you will walk, and that walk also will be slowed down. You will
walk slowly, just as a pregnant woman walks. You will walk slowly, very
carefully. You are carrying something.
And quite the opposite will happen when you are carrying a flame: your
walk will become faster; rather, you would like to run. There will be
more movement, you will become more active. Carrying darkness you will
be relaxed. Others will start feeling that you are lazy.
In the days when I was at university, I was doing this experiment for
two years. I became so lazy that even to get out of bed in the morning
was difficult. My professors became very much disturbed about it, and
they thought something had gone wrong with me -- either I was ill, or I
had become absolutely indifferent. One professor who loved me very much,
the head of my department, became so worried that on my examination days
he would come to fetch me from the hostel in the morning just to lead me
to the examination hall so that I could be there on time. Every day he
would see that I had entered the hall, and only then would he feel okay
and go home.
Try it. It is one of the most beautiful experiences in life to carry
darkness in your womb, to become dark. Walking, eating, sitting, doing
whatsoever, remember, the darkness is filled in you; you are filled with
it. And then see how things change. You cannot get excited, you cannot
be very active, you cannot be tense. Your sleep will become so deep that
dreams will disappear and the whole day you will move as if intoxicated.
Sufis have used this method, a particular sect of Sufis, and those Sufis
are known as drunken Sufis. They are drunk with this darkness. They make
holes in the ground, and they lie down in the holes every night, and
they meditate lying down in their holes -- meditating darkness, becoming
one with it. And their eyes will show you that they are intoxicated. You
can feel from their eyes such deep relaxation, such a relaxed vibration,
that it can happen only if you are deeply intoxicated or feeling very
sleepy. Only then can your eyes show that expression. They are known as
drunken Sufis -- and they are drunk with darkness.