Jiddu Krishnamurti on Awareness
Jiddu Krishnamurti - To be free from this disorder is order. Please follow this a little bit. To be free from disorder, which is the social order, is to be actually in order. So, one cannot seek order. Order is a living thing - it is changing, it is moving, it is vital, creative - it isn't just functioning within a pattern established by society, by culture. That society, that culture, has produced great disorder, great misery, conflict. And this conflict, this confusion, however supposedly moral, is immoral; it is disorder. If the mind can understand this disorder and free itself from it, then naturally there will be order.
Then the mind won't seek a pattern of order. I don't know if I am making myself clear on this point. This is really very important to understand. Through negation of what is disorder, there is order, but if you pursue order positively, then you will have disorder. If you will negate completely that which is not order - which we consider positive - then out of that negation comes the positive order, which is living. When I see, when the mind understands very clearly that hate is not love, or that jealousy is not love, when you completely deny jealousy anywhere, then you may come upon what love is. You cannot cultivate love, but you can deny that which it is not.
So, out of denial of that which is not true comes what is true, and what
is true, what is order, cannot be preestablished; if you do, then you
are merely suppressing disorder, which will burst out again at another
time. Look, all the tyrannies, the dictatorships - the Russian, the
Chinese, the Hitlerian, Mussolinian, and so on - they said, ``This is
order; this is the way you must think, act, function.'' And Stalin and
others have liquidated millions, literally millions, to bring about or-der
- what they considered order - which is bringing disorder, obviously,
because there is the demand for freedom. There is the demand that the
mind shall be free, not be suppressed, not be ordered about by a
So, the question is: Is it possible to understand this whole structure
of disorder without creating its opposite, for when you create the
opposite it breeds disorder. So, can you understand disorder without
conflict? The moment there is conflict, there is the indication of its
opposite - that you must be orderly. Order is virtue, but when these two
opposites exist there is conflict. Can the mind, without creating the
opposite, understand disorder without conflict? This is not an
intellectual question, this is not something of a puzzle, but it is
essentially our problem. We live in a state of disorder - in your own
houses there is disorder, confusion, the mess and the dirt, the squalor,
which is projected outwardly in your office and in your way of thinking,
walking, sitting, spitting, and everything that goes on.
And, when you are free from something, are you actually free? Please do
go into it in yourselves, observe it. Or, is freedom something entirely
different and not from something? Being free from something is a
reaction, and the reaction can go on repeating itself indefinitely. But
the freedom we are talking about is entirely different, the sense of
being completely free - not from anything. And, this quality of
awareness of what is implied in being free from something, awareness of
the whole structure of it, will naturally bring about a freedom which is
not a reaction. Is this all getting rather too complicated? Yes?
So, we are not observing outwardly the trees, the birds, the sky, the
clouds, the beauty of a sunset, the curve of a hill, the smile on a
face; we are not aware of these at all, outwardly. But, it becomes much
more difficult to be aware inwardly, of what actually is going on.
There, outwardly, it doesn't much matter, but inwardly it matters very
much because the moment you are aware of yourself, your thoughts, your
feelings, your confusion, then you get agitated, you are anxious, you
want to change them. But first, what is important is just to observe,
without any reaction.
And, to observe very clearly, the mind must be quiet. It is not a
question of how to make the mind quiet, which becomes absurd; the mind
cannot be made quiet. If you do, there are dualities: there is the man
who says, ``I must make the mind quiet,'' and there is the actuality of
the mind which wanders all over the place. This is a conflict. Whereas,
if one wants to understand oneself, the mind has to be quiet to look;
and you cannot look if you condemn, if you justify, if you falsify, if
you are not honest. And, as most of us are trained to be dishonest,
never to look at things directly, it becomes extraordinarily difficult
for people who have not actually looked - observed a tree, a cloud, the
beauty of light on the water.